Here's my painting titled "Alien to Her Own!" I made this painting because I have always felt as though I don't fit in anywhere. It's true I don't, that used to make me cry and feel so sorry for myself, but these days I have decided to use this fact to make my art better. I also want to use my art to make statements for the mentally ill. When I was young I was horribly bullied the bullies were scary horrible beasts but worse were those who could have helped me but simply became onlookers. My own father would and still does tell me how if everyone is picking on me I must be doing something wrong and I need to look in the mirror and see what needs to change.
Well I been looking in my mirror for years and like all healthy people I can see things I need to change to be my best self, but no one deserves to be bullied. I was beaten chased, raped, tortured day in and day out from age ... well young to even sometimes now.
The truth is I am different, I am very friendly, outgoing but not aggressive, kind hearted, very sensitive, sometimes I ask too many questions and laugh too loud, sometimes I even yell, but that takes alot these days. I used to cry at the drop of a pin but not anymore, my antidepressant works well for that, I hardly ever cry anymore. Sometime as weird as it may seem I even miss my tears, but not much. I am glad to be a happy person, I am glad to be different , and I am very glad to be me. Thing is I always liked being me but I used to wish other people liked me being me. Now it really doesn't matter so much if other people don't like or approve of who I am or who I'm not, see the thing is God made us all different and for a reason. I still am not sure what makes me so different but I know I am.
I am not too damaged to be an great artist, a mom, a good friend, a good neighbor, a good daughter , a good sister, a good cousin,a cheerful giver,a gardener, a cook, a responsible citizen, a prayer warrior,a steward of what God has given to me, a songster, an adventurist, a traveller, a generous soul, a lover of small creatures, a seeker of wisdom, an open heart, a lover of God!