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Tuesday, December 24, 2013

It's Christmas eve day people!

 SO I have a few things to talk about!!!! One I want to praise God for sending His son down as a tiny human baby just so that one day He could grow up and die on the cross for me(FOR US), and He would come to us this way... He could have come anyway He wanted or could have chosen to let us all condemn ourselves to a life of slavery to sin.
    He didn't though, instead He came as a bitty baby born to a something like 12 year old girl named Mary. I always knew she was young, but until this week always thought she was more like 14 or 16 years old. Truth is back then a girl was betrothed as soon as she was able to conceive helping  her be safe and stay pure. Imagine what it must have been like for her, so young being told by God Himself you were going to give birth to the Christ Child. I can't even tolerate a jagged fingernail.
  I wonder if Jesus knew He was God at birth? Did He realized why the wise men came, that and angel was over him, over the Manger He was born in because there was no room in the Inn?  Did He know when He was two, and king Herod had all the firstborn  boys murdered why he was spared? Did He ever tell his mommy "NO"? Maybe if she asked him to do the wrong thing, right?
    This year I didn't make any cookies or even take all the decorations out of my boxes. I only made gifts and snow people for others and to sell to help raise money to possibly go to Africa(God willing)! Funny my word this year was "Greatness" and my greatest lesson was humility.  Meeting the sweetest children from Uganda and seeing how kind and humble and full of joy they are really changed my perspective, and opened my eyes to the still possibilities that "yes" God can even use me.
  We are never too old to do His will, to be what He expects us to be. Sure I am not completely clear on everything He wants for me, but finally getting an understanding that He sees me a a person of value even when I do not. My greatness doesn't come from what I achieve or do in my life... it comes from a state of humility in seeing what He did in His life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Having a heart ready to do His will and share His Gospel with others. The same hope He gave to me so long ago when I was just a ten year old girl.
    I have known He was there for a long time routing for me -in my corner and protecting me for some reason. I knew it had to do with art, and healing and sharing with others the gifts He so graciously bestowed upon me. He has also given all of us gifts to share with others and sometimes/ most times it has nothing to do with money. Not being able to make a lot of money I became discouraged, though I did not give up. Part of the gift He has given to me is a passion to create, and even in my darkest times that light never expired.
    Giving to others is something I have always enjoyed doing, and there were times I actually thought I had nothing to give. Just so you all know (if anyone is reading my blog), we all have something to give to others even if we are dirt poor or handicapped /disabled , even if we feel like social teeny people. God has given us each something special to share, and so this year I am going to stay focused on sharing with others, while God molds me into the person I am to become.
   Seriously praying for the possibility of doing missionary work in Uganda with  Art and Healing and mainly with the power of Christ. The power that allows us all to forgive to be forgiven and to change
He came as an innocent  baby, and died with a crown of thorns
 into the person we were meant to be, the person God intends for each one of us to become. Not because I am better than anyone else, rather because I am not and God can still use me anyways!  Not only in spite of my flaws but because of them. People can say hey look at Susan, she had and has all these issues and still God has called her to serve Him!!! 
    This year for Christmas I have asked for the bible on audio, because I hate reading most of the time, this is going to be a real blessing for me. I am going to play His word day and night, night and day, until I have heard the entire bible.While I do so I intend to do some allegory scenes in my artwork in relationship to what I am hearing. I want God to be in the center of everything I do, everywhere I go and all my coming goals. My greatness needs to come through and only through His! My passion for art still exists but I want it to coexist with God's plan for my life.  If I could learn how to serve Him before I die I will be so much more fulfilled!!!!
   When God uses me to bless His kingdom life suddenly feels worth while like never before, it's like a rush of love and purpose soaring through the center of my being. All the things the world expects of me suddenly fade into the background of what used to be important and I am made whole. Make me whole this year Lord all day everyday. Help me to love your children more, seek your face harder, and put all my loyalties right where they belong.
  If Mary could trust and obey God, and if Jesus (who is God in human form)could come as a baby just to die for my sins, then I now see no reason at all why you cannot conform me. All day everyday for the rest of my life!
  

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